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I wanted to say whatever he could,

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and so I could get away
because there was another girl

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that was supposed to,

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she was trying to do the
same thing and he found out,

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he got wind, and she got really mouthy.

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And he said, "We're going to take a trip."

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So we all got in the car and we all went

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to this other pimp's house and he put her

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into a dog cage and started beating her

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through the little
rails with a broomstick.

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And he said, "That's what
happens when you try to run.

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That's what happens when
you get lippy with me."

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I don't know how this happened.

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They just tell you hundreds of things

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that break you down mentally.

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You can't just exit that lifestyle.

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If you go to the police they will say, "Why
are you doing this job in the first place?

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If you don't like it why
don't you leave it?"

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What about life after the life?

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What about the journey
that we have to take?

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Nobody understands that struggle.

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They think once we're
rescued, we're healed,

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that's it, done.

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I didn't have a home to come back to.

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- The way my body felt,
this is not what I deserve.

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My name is Sadhvi Siddhali Shree.

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I'm a Jain monk and an Iraq war veteran.

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I've struggled with PTSD,

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not only from serving as an army medic,

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but from repressed childhood
trauma that came flooding back.

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I only knew something happened to me.

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I forgot it.

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You blacked it out.

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I blacked it out

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and it wasn't until I went
into a deep meditation

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October, 2013.

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And I was just like just lying there

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and just going deep into my soul.

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And all of a sudden I
was reliving everything.

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- No!
- Like when it was happening

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I know PTSD, I know pain.

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After what happened to me,

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I always wanted to help
others that had gone

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through similar anguish.

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I didn't just want to help them,

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I needed to see how they survived.

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- How do survivors of such
horrific events move forward

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with their lives and heal?

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I reached out on social media to see

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if there were any survivors
willing to share their pain.

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Our journey began with
Angie, who instantly replied.

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Hi, my name is Angela Williams.

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I'm 35 years old from Houston, Texas.

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I grew up in a low
income Hispanic community

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and was targeted by my first
trafficker, Andre McDaniels,

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when I was only 17 years old.

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Through a high school friend,

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he recruited me into a
trafficking underworld

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in the disguise of a modeling opportunity.

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He groomed me,

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he broke me down,

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and he forced me into full-time
stripping and prostitution.

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- Physical and sexual
abuse by the suspect,

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who she described as a pimp.

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Hey.

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Hello.

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Hi.

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I brought water.

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Thank you.

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Hey.

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How are you?

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We're set up here.

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I didn't know what was going on.

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They don't say that
they're sex traffickers,

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they don't identify themselves as pimps.

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They make you feel like
if they're some sort

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of business manager or life coach.

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Even putting themselves
at the same level of a god

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that you should obey and worship.

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- While Angie was open
with us on her first day,

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she expressed she wasn't
ready to tell her full story.

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Survivors must be given the
grace to tell their story

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in their own way and in their own time.

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Months later, we traveled to Las Vegas,

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the city where Angie spent
most of her trafficked years,

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but she almost didn't come at all.

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Whether she was triggered,
got scared, or had doubts,

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she missed her flight.

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Luckily, Southwest Airlines
understood her situation

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and booked her a new flight.

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When she arrived, it was
as if nothing was wrong.

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Like many survivors, she harbored a pain

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that was invisible on the outside.

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I was 18.

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I didn't understand the severity
of minors being trafficked.

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To me, it just reminded
me of the drug dealers

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and how they get hotel
rooms to work out of

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or trap houses to work out of.

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So it was just another
underworld of the ghetto,

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like a female hustler.

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One of the older women
gave me a mini tour.

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She was like, "These are the towels,

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you lay them on the bed,

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so the clients don't sit on the sheets.

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They sit on the towels over the sheets,"

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and it was all clinical.

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"And this is the rags
that we clean them with."

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When a guy would come in,

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the doorbell would ring and all
the girls would have to come

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to the window of the front of the brothel,

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like a cattle call in our lingerie.

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I would see clients and I
started just doing hand jobs.

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And eventually, the other girls got mad

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because he was giving
me, he was babying me.

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So I ended up getting pressured
into giving full service

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with the clients.

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And it was tormenting and
horrible and traumatizing.

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And every guy felt like I was being raped.

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Every guy felt like I just, like,

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I would just hold my hands like
this when they were over me,

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just so that way their
chest and their sweat

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would not come near me.

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I had a family and I was so
ashamed and so embarrassed

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with myself when I would think about it,

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that I just tried to suppress
it and not think about it.

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I was getting pedophile
clients that wanted me to act

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as if I was 13 or 12 or 16.

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And I looked that young
and this client wanted me

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to meet him at the high school bleachers

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and pick me up and then
take me back to the brothel.

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He was like big, fat, oily,

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greasy, nasty, disgusting,

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rich guy who just wanted me to be

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a 16 year old high school girl.

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And I felt like the 16
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that was probably like my first trauma,

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like where it, it stuck
with me, even to this day.

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Like I remember him, his smell,

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like pig sweat.

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- The next survivor
to contact us was Kendra,

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a woman from Miami.

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After a decade, she was finally
ready to share her story.

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Why don't you just leave?

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In one day, I lost my car, my house,

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my furniture, everything.

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When I went and he took
me for three months,

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I lost everything.

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What was I gonna go back to?

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The things that he says,
"I'll kill your family,

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I'll never let you go,"

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it sits into your mind and then later,

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when you make these
decisions, you hear it,

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you hear his voice.

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I got emancipated when I was 15

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and being, thinking I was a grown adult,

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I kind of went out into
the streets to work

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and live wherever I could.

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Then developed a, you know,

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a drinking habit and
drinking led into drugs.

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And then, drugs led into needing
to maintain that lifestyle.

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And the easiest way to get
that lifestyle was to go dance.

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And I was always the I'm
here for my money, you know,

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I'm not here for the nonsense.

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And I think that that was
where he noticed how loud I was

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and how arrogant I was about
not being able to be pimped.

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So he sent two girls about my age in,

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and I was living in Orlando
and he, the girls came in,

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I didn't know they were with him at all.

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And they told me, "Oh, let's
go to Miami for New Year's."

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And I said, "Okay, let's go.

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You know, I've never been to Miami."

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So I had the one Corona
and then I had a drink

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that they gave me, and then that's it.

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I kind of blacked out after that.

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And when I woke up, the ground was moving,

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I was getting very nauseous,
and I looked up and I kind of,

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you know, assessed my surroundings.

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And I was in a van and
I kind of rolled over

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and he shifted around, he grabs his gun,

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and he pointed it towards me.

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And he said, "We're not going
to have any problems, are we?"

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I think it was that first night,

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one of the girls did
something he didn't like,

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and he was super aggressive with her

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and just grabs her by her face

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and was just pushing
her around and yelling.

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And I thought to myself, I said,

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"It's not, it's not
gonna be the life for me.

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I'd rather die than have you beat on me

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and sell me for money."

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I told him, I said,

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"Look, you're going to have
one dead girl on your hands

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if you think that I'm
going to go and sleep

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and sleep with these Johns."

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And he made a compromise for me, he said,

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"Okay, I'll keep you for
me and you go to the clubs,

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you make my money, and you bring it home."

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How do you define sex trafficking?

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- It's different than
smuggling because smuggling

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is what people think of.

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Oh, they're bringing
humans across the border.

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Sex trafficking is when there
is money exchange for sex

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using force, fraud, or coercion.

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Rachel's father was the leader

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of a biker gang and prostituted women,

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including Rachel's mother.

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Her escape to foster care was short-lived,

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as the family she was placed
with only took in children

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to rape them.

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At 15, she tried to escape
again, living on the streets,

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doing whatever she could to survive,

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but a phony modeling agency trafficked her

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and blackmailed her with photos,

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threatening to expose her
secret life to her school.

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When she graduated,

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she finally got away to a remote college

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where she studied nursing.

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- And now I share my
story with whoever I can

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because I realize so
many people are helped

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when we're able to get our
voice back and share our story.

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And that's when we get our power back,

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because we're able to
speak and not be afraid.

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The biggest question asked
is why didn't she just leave?

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They can't leave.

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There's either drugs,
a $20,000 cocaine habit

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that's reeling them in.

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Threaten their families.

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A lot of times when their pimp tells them,

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"We will kill your family,"
they truly believe them

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and they're trying to
protect someone else.

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Even if they can run,
where are they going to go?

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They've already lost their
self-value of thinking

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I can do this on my own,
they're ashamed of it.

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They don't want to ask for
help because they believe

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that they're going to
be the scarlet letter,

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the throwaways, and
unfortunately, in today's society,

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they are, that's not a
misconception on our part

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as survivors.

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We are looked at as dirty.

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For victims, it's not a choice.

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Even when they're told
they're choosing up,

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a misnomer that refers to being sold

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from one trafficker to another.

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Angie left her first trafficker, Andre,

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and chose up multiple times,

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trafficked nationally by violent pimps

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until she met her final
trafficker in Las Vegas.

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Tyree was a boyfriend pimp,

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someone who masquerades themselves

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as romantically interested
in vulnerable girls

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or young women.

254
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And he came around,

255
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took me to a martini bar,

256
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coercion on a different level.

257
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And the whole time, his
intentions were only

258
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to do the same thing
that all the rest did.

259
00:13:24,053 --> 00:13:26,589
We had date night every
Wednesday, went to the movies.

260
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We had, you know, martini bar nights,

261
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nice fancy restaurants,

262
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went out, wine and dined me.

263
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And next thing you know,

264
00:13:35,731 --> 00:13:39,518
when I don't want to give him
the money that he's expecting,

265
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I'm getting my door
kicked into my mansion.

266
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The way my body felt, you know,

267
00:13:45,783 --> 00:13:47,693
just knowing that this is the life

268
00:13:47,743 --> 00:13:50,029
that I was going to be in.

269
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For over a decade, I feel
like I lost myself completely.

270
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I made a facade of somebody

271
00:14:13,143 --> 00:14:15,721
who was okay with all this.

272
00:14:15,771 --> 00:14:18,265
You know, this is just
how it's going to be.

273
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From Miami, we went up to South Carolina,

274
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he bought a house out there,

275
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and we went to work the next day.

276
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And when I came home,

277
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he had assigned us all different rooms.

278
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And I go into my room, he had
nailed all the windows shut

279
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and our doors had keys, so
there were no door handles.

280
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So when we went to our rooms,

281
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we were locked in our rooms.

282
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And even when I would go to my room,

283
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after I get off of work,

284
00:14:44,550 --> 00:14:47,336
that's when he felt like
it was his time with me.

285
00:14:47,386 --> 00:14:51,173
There were times when I
would cry during the rape,

286
00:14:51,223 --> 00:14:53,801
and he would put his hands
so hard over my mouth,

287
00:14:53,851 --> 00:14:56,303
but he so big, so much bigger than me,

288
00:14:56,353 --> 00:14:58,472
his hand would cover my nose and my mouth.

289
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And it would get to the point
where I'd almost suffocate

290
00:15:00,733 --> 00:15:02,476
and before, he would let me off,

291
00:15:02,526 --> 00:15:04,436
before he would let me breathe,

292
00:15:04,486 --> 00:15:08,365
as he said it, he would let me breathe.

293
00:15:26,884 --> 00:15:27,927
Two elbows

294
00:15:32,473 --> 00:15:33,307
Move here.

295
00:15:38,562 --> 00:15:39,521
Okay, go.

296
00:15:43,567 --> 00:15:44,351
That was the end of the round, right?

297
00:15:44,401 --> 00:15:47,154
- That's the end of the round.
- Good, I need to breathe.

298
00:15:48,530 --> 00:15:50,274
He said he was going to take a trip.

299
00:15:50,324 --> 00:15:52,943
And at that point, I think I
had gained enough confidence.

300
00:15:52,993 --> 00:15:56,030
I took the keys and I
unlocked the front door.

301
00:15:56,080 --> 00:15:58,782
And I don't think I, I don't
think I took anything with me.

302
00:15:58,832 --> 00:16:01,118
I just ran as fast as I
could and as far as I could,

303
00:16:01,168 --> 00:16:04,588
and then I took a bus and came home.

304
00:16:07,925 --> 00:16:11,337
- I knew I realized that
I needed to get away

305
00:16:11,387 --> 00:16:16,392
from trafficking and I
had a sneak apartment,

306
00:16:16,975 --> 00:16:24,108
and I was making my way
to exit that lifestyle.

307
00:16:24,274 --> 00:16:26,852
But you can't just exit that lifestyle.

308
00:16:26,902 --> 00:16:30,022
It's easier said than done.

309
00:16:30,072 --> 00:16:34,360
So when I decided to leave
him, that's when he came back,

310
00:16:34,410 --> 00:16:40,833
and assaulted me and left me for dead.

311
00:16:43,711 --> 00:16:45,871
- Angie took the crew and I
to her old condo,

312
00:16:45,921 --> 00:16:48,749
where the assault happened,
it was still empty.

313
00:16:48,799 --> 00:16:50,751
And on a whim, she tried the door,

314
00:16:50,801 --> 00:16:53,512
we were shocked to find it unlocked.

315
00:16:54,722 --> 00:16:55,589
So creepy.

316
00:16:55,639 --> 00:16:58,550
This is where I lived and this was going

317
00:16:58,600 --> 00:17:00,427
to be my runaway haven.

318
00:17:00,477 --> 00:17:04,273
I was upstairs, I got a call from Tyree.

319
00:17:08,152 --> 00:17:12,481
So he ran in, he had
something in his hand,

320
00:17:12,531 --> 00:17:13,899
I didn't see at the time,

321
00:17:13,949 --> 00:17:15,034
and...

322
00:17:16,952 --> 00:17:19,488
The first strike with the nightstick

323
00:17:19,538 --> 00:17:22,666
and he said, "Get the fuck upstairs."

324
00:17:26,295 --> 00:17:29,331
He told me to put my hands out.

325
00:17:29,381 --> 00:17:32,334
And when I put my hands out,

326
00:17:32,384 --> 00:17:36,755
he grabbed the nightstick
and hit me again.

327
00:17:36,805 --> 00:17:39,433
He told me to get the fuck downstairs

328
00:17:41,435 --> 00:17:45,014
and he hit me again with the nightstick,

329
00:17:45,064 --> 00:17:46,890
but I went like this.

330
00:17:46,940 --> 00:17:49,852
The nightstick hit this part of my arm.

331
00:17:49,902 --> 00:17:54,773
My bone popped out of here and
blood just splattered here.

332
00:17:54,823 --> 00:17:58,944
And he started trying to
give me blows to my head,

333
00:17:58,994 --> 00:18:00,529
so I tucked under like this,

334
00:18:00,579 --> 00:18:03,240
holding my arm, and
I'm cornered back here.

335
00:18:03,290 --> 00:18:06,702
So I was just like this, like,
look at what you're doing.

336
00:18:06,752 --> 00:18:10,497
I think, I think something's
broken and you're hurting me.

337
00:18:10,547 --> 00:18:14,793
You're going to kill me and I
just started praying to God.

338
00:18:14,843 --> 00:18:19,590
And I have never felt
such a spiritual moment

339
00:18:19,640 --> 00:18:21,341
or so close to God as that moment

340
00:18:21,391 --> 00:18:26,305
because when I screamed and
prayed and begged for him,

341
00:18:26,355 --> 00:18:27,389
he was there for me.

342
00:18:27,439 --> 00:18:31,393
And Tyree was standing right
there and he had the nightstick

343
00:18:31,443 --> 00:18:34,480
and dropped it and told
me to go the fuck upstairs

344
00:18:34,530 --> 00:18:36,031
and don't come back.

345
00:18:42,162 --> 00:18:43,530
- [News Reporter] Beaten
and left for dead,

346
00:18:43,580 --> 00:18:46,617
a woman says she was trafficked
for sex by her ex-boyfriend

347
00:18:46,667 --> 00:18:49,870
for years who also
savagely brutalized her.

348
00:18:49,920 --> 00:18:53,123
I'm in so much pain and it hurts so much.

349
00:18:53,173 --> 00:18:55,334
- [News Reporter] She
tells us her ex-boyfriend

350
00:18:55,384 --> 00:18:59,046
beat her so viciously, he left
her with a fractured skull,

351
00:18:59,096 --> 00:19:01,882
her right forearm broken, now in a cast,

352
00:19:01,932 --> 00:19:04,009
her left hand shattered.

353
00:19:04,059 --> 00:19:07,429
- I can't even bathe
myself or feed myself.

354
00:19:07,479 --> 00:19:10,524
I need somebody with me all the time.

355
00:19:12,276 --> 00:19:14,436
I just sat in the hospital
and realized like,

356
00:19:14,486 --> 00:19:18,565
this is not the way to live.

357
00:19:18,615 --> 00:19:20,734
This is not what I deserve.

358
00:19:20,784 --> 00:19:23,654
This is not the end of my story.

359
00:19:23,704 --> 00:19:27,374
Anything that I did to get
me to this point has to die.

360
00:19:30,335 --> 00:19:32,546
And I have to change now.

361
00:19:45,183 --> 00:19:46,927
Pain is universal.

362
00:19:46,977 --> 00:19:50,055
It allows us to feel
empathy up to a point,

363
00:19:50,105 --> 00:19:53,809
but we are limited by the
depth of our own experiences.

364
00:19:53,859 --> 00:19:56,395
Can we truly relate to
what trafficking survivors

365
00:19:56,445 --> 00:19:58,272
go through?

366
00:19:58,322 --> 00:20:01,942
With my own trauma, I was
only just discovering it.

367
00:20:01,992 --> 00:20:04,653
When it all came flooding
back that first time,

368
00:20:04,703 --> 00:20:07,114
I immediately wrote down what happened

369
00:20:07,164 --> 00:20:08,907
so I wouldn't forget again.

370
00:20:08,957 --> 00:20:12,411
I told my spiritual teacher,
Acharya Shree Yogeesh,

371
00:20:12,461 --> 00:20:14,830
and he reminded me of
one of his teachings.

372
00:20:14,880 --> 00:20:18,926
He said, "Express and never suppress."

373
00:20:19,718 --> 00:20:22,888
Remember, mind doesn't hold the pain,

374
00:20:23,764 --> 00:20:28,719
mind only remembers
only the physical body.

375
00:20:28,769 --> 00:20:32,347
It is like a wound. That's not your wound,

376
00:20:32,397 --> 00:20:34,066
somebody gave you the wound.

377
00:20:36,193 --> 00:20:40,113
You're suffering, but it is healable.

378
00:20:41,615 --> 00:20:43,033
Two times this side,

379
00:20:47,287 --> 00:20:48,488
You're swallowing the air.

380
00:20:48,538 --> 00:20:51,083
And breathe out twenty five times up.

381
00:20:56,880 --> 00:20:58,298
Thank you, Acharya Shree.

382
00:20:58,882 --> 00:20:59,716
My blessings.

383
00:21:02,886 --> 00:21:03,795
Through my meditations,

384
00:21:03,845 --> 00:21:07,674
I'm able to admit to myself
what happened when I was six,

385
00:21:07,724 --> 00:21:09,468
but to truly heal,

386
00:21:09,518 --> 00:21:11,762
I feel the need to connect
with others who can relate

387
00:21:11,812 --> 00:21:13,555
to my story.

388
00:21:13,605 --> 00:21:16,725
Like Rachel, who has
worked with many survivors,

389
00:21:16,775 --> 00:21:18,727
I find purpose in traveling,

390
00:21:18,777 --> 00:21:21,605
teaching, and doing anything
I can to inspire hope

391
00:21:21,655 --> 00:21:23,315
and healing.

392
00:21:23,365 --> 00:21:26,235
I was honored when Rachel
agreed to join us on a trip

393
00:21:26,285 --> 00:21:28,320
with a group of activists,

394
00:21:28,370 --> 00:21:30,072
organized by Children at Risk,

395
00:21:30,122 --> 00:21:32,582
to visit international shelters.

396
00:21:32,874 --> 00:21:36,086
Our first stop: the Center
of Hope in the Philippines.

397
00:21:36,920 --> 00:21:41,041
I became a nurse that, when
girls come to the hospital

398
00:21:41,091 --> 00:21:43,961
after they're sexually
assaulted or trafficked,

399
00:21:44,011 --> 00:21:46,171
I take care of them, take the pictures,

400
00:21:46,221 --> 00:21:49,675
testify for them in court,
and do that as a nurse now.

401
00:21:49,725 --> 00:21:52,844
Once I realized, when I was a nurse,

402
00:21:52,894 --> 00:21:54,763
this is what happened to me growing up,

403
00:21:54,813 --> 00:21:56,014
and it wasn't my fault.

404
00:21:56,064 --> 00:21:59,017
That wasn't me, it was
something that was done to me.

405
00:21:59,067 --> 00:22:01,812
And I realized I need to heal.

406
00:22:01,862 --> 00:22:04,147
Because I just pretended
like it never happened,

407
00:22:04,197 --> 00:22:06,984
and I was ashamed and I
never told anyone my story,

408
00:22:07,034 --> 00:22:08,819
I wanted to hide it.

409
00:22:08,869 --> 00:22:11,238
But once I started sharing my story,

410
00:22:11,288 --> 00:22:14,825
I realized there was other
girls who had similar stories

411
00:22:14,875 --> 00:22:17,703
and that everybody's
story may be different

412
00:22:17,753 --> 00:22:19,921
but the pain inside is still the same.

413
00:22:20,297 --> 00:22:23,467
It means that survivors like you

414
00:22:23,508 --> 00:22:25,961
can be the support system of each other.

415
00:22:26,011 --> 00:22:29,181
You will be a family. Aren't we a family?

416
00:22:29,389 --> 00:22:30,891
Are we a family?

417
00:22:30,932 --> 00:22:32,309
Yes!

418
00:22:32,351 --> 00:22:34,019
We are a family here.

419
00:22:34,519 --> 00:22:36,605
That's what we should remember, right?

420
00:22:36,646 --> 00:22:39,274
If your own family is not good for you,

421
00:22:39,316 --> 00:22:42,527
you can still build your own family.

422
00:22:43,028 --> 00:22:44,438
That's good, right?

423
00:22:44,488 --> 00:22:46,023
Is the message good?

424
00:22:46,073 --> 00:22:47,115
Yes...

425
00:22:47,157 --> 00:22:49,451
It gives a very beautiful message

426
00:22:49,493 --> 00:22:50,373
that you give to them.

427
00:22:54,498 --> 00:22:55,490
To get to that root

428
00:22:55,540 --> 00:22:58,410
and to truly make them
feel valuable again,

429
00:22:58,460 --> 00:23:02,205
in and of themselves, and to
pour into them and love them,

430
00:23:02,255 --> 00:23:05,459
that's what I love doing
is to be able to give back

431
00:23:05,509 --> 00:23:07,794
from what was taken for me,
to give them a voice back.

432
00:23:07,844 --> 00:23:10,130
Any victim that's rescued
and becomes that survivor

433
00:23:10,180 --> 00:23:13,008
and gets back into normal life,

434
00:23:13,058 --> 00:23:15,177
they're going to need
to know what it means

435
00:23:15,227 --> 00:23:18,638
to be a normal person and
assimilate back into society.

436
00:23:18,688 --> 00:23:20,640
And it takes a village, it
takes all of those skills,

437
00:23:20,690 --> 00:23:22,317
it takes everyone.

438
00:23:25,612 --> 00:23:29,282
- Dumbest question of
the day, "Are you okay?"

439
00:23:30,283 --> 00:23:32,152
"Do you feel okay?"

440
00:23:32,202 --> 00:23:35,363
Does it look like I feel okay?

441
00:23:35,413 --> 00:23:37,449
I'm gettin' surgery on my hand on Friday.

442
00:23:37,499 --> 00:23:38,784
When you were in the hospital,

443
00:23:38,834 --> 00:23:42,996
what inspired you to maybe
seek healing or a program?

444
00:23:43,046 --> 00:23:44,873
What was that like?

445
00:23:44,923 --> 00:23:47,667
- Something came over me
where I just felt like

446
00:23:47,717 --> 00:23:49,544
I was going to be okay.

447
00:23:49,594 --> 00:23:52,089
And from that moment, I felt like I was

448
00:23:52,139 --> 00:23:55,759
in the palm of God's hands
and I was going to be okay.

449
00:23:55,809 --> 00:23:58,553
I knew then that I was beginning to change

450
00:23:58,603 --> 00:24:00,555
and I knew I had to change my environment

451
00:24:00,605 --> 00:24:03,642
and I had to go somewhere
where I could get help.

452
00:24:03,692 --> 00:24:07,145
It took a lot of humbling to, you know,

453
00:24:07,195 --> 00:24:09,815
understand and be
receptive of the fact that

454
00:24:09,865 --> 00:24:13,360
these are the steps that
I need to go through.

455
00:24:13,410 --> 00:24:15,654
You know, there were a lot
of things that I needed,

456
00:24:15,704 --> 00:24:16,988
I needed adjusting to in society.

457
00:24:17,038 --> 00:24:18,782
I was afraid of men.

458
00:24:18,832 --> 00:24:21,284
Like I was afraid of, you know,

459
00:24:21,334 --> 00:24:24,579
men that fit the profile
of a sex trafficker

460
00:24:24,629 --> 00:24:29,042
that might not have been, but
I was just so traumatized.

461
00:24:29,092 --> 00:24:31,803
After I got my, my therapist,

462
00:24:33,388 --> 00:24:37,008
we were looking at different
options for housing

463
00:24:37,058 --> 00:24:38,218
so I could be safe.

464
00:24:38,268 --> 00:24:44,399
So I ended up in a house
in the suburbs of New York

465
00:24:45,066 --> 00:24:48,570
and the house was ran by three nuns.

466
00:24:53,200 --> 00:24:55,527
They were just so selfless and willing

467
00:24:55,577 --> 00:24:57,904
to help the girls in the house.

468
00:24:57,954 --> 00:24:59,906
We had a curfew, so if we left out,

469
00:24:59,956 --> 00:25:03,952
we had to be in by 10 or they're
locking the doors.

470
00:25:04,002 --> 00:25:08,874
And if it was 9:30,

471
00:25:08,924 --> 00:25:11,293
they would call me and
ask me if I was okay

472
00:25:11,343 --> 00:25:13,345
and going to make it home.

473
00:25:17,474 --> 00:25:19,968
How long did you stay there for?

474
00:25:20,018 --> 00:25:22,179
Almost a year.

475
00:25:22,229 --> 00:25:26,016
I felt like going to that home,

476
00:25:26,066 --> 00:25:28,894
even though my family
told me that I was crazy,

477
00:25:28,944 --> 00:25:32,105
it was the best thing
that I could have done

478
00:25:32,155 --> 00:25:34,608
during my transition and the
best thing I could've done

479
00:25:34,658 --> 00:25:35,442
for myself.

480
00:25:35,492 --> 00:25:39,821
And had I not gone to that
house and experienced the life

481
00:25:39,871 --> 00:25:44,876
with the other survivors,
then I don't think that,

482
00:25:45,043 --> 00:25:47,454
I don't think that I would be here today.

483
00:25:47,504 --> 00:25:51,750
I do think that I would have
been more vulnerable to fall

484
00:25:51,800 --> 00:25:56,805
back into my old lifestyle
and more exposed to fall back

485
00:25:57,180 --> 00:25:59,057
into my old lifestyle.

486
00:26:01,351 --> 00:26:03,511
When I got home is when I started

487
00:26:03,561 --> 00:26:05,013
to feel a little bit better,

488
00:26:05,063 --> 00:26:07,015
but I didn't have a home to come back to.

489
00:26:07,065 --> 00:26:08,475
When I got off the bus,

490
00:26:08,525 --> 00:26:10,435
I went straight to the police station.

491
00:26:10,485 --> 00:26:13,313
The line of questions was
totally inappropriate.

492
00:26:13,363 --> 00:26:17,567
"Well, you were out here for
New Year's drinking, huh?"

493
00:26:17,617 --> 00:26:19,194
"Yes, sir, I was."

494
00:26:19,244 --> 00:26:20,695
"Well, how much had you had to drink?"

495
00:26:20,745 --> 00:26:23,198
Just, it was very
condescending, very demeaning,

496
00:26:23,248 --> 00:26:26,493
very, "Well, you said you
met him in a strip club?

497
00:26:26,543 --> 00:26:28,411
What was his name?"

498
00:26:28,461 --> 00:26:30,205
And I was like, "Is there
anybody else I can see?"

499
00:26:30,255 --> 00:26:33,667
And he's just like very
short and, "Well, are you sure?

500
00:26:33,717 --> 00:26:35,210
You know, you didn't want to go?"

501
00:26:35,260 --> 00:26:37,963
And it got to the point where
I was like, you know what?

502
00:26:38,013 --> 00:26:39,381
That's okay.

503
00:26:39,431 --> 00:26:41,341
You know, I don't have to worry about it.

504
00:26:41,391 --> 00:26:42,717
And I walked all the
way to my friend's house

505
00:26:42,767 --> 00:26:45,604
and it was a really long walk.

506
00:26:49,774 --> 00:26:52,602
I felt like it was a walk
of shame because now the cop

507
00:26:52,652 --> 00:26:55,188
made me feel even worse about my situation

508
00:26:55,238 --> 00:26:57,107
and that I didn't deserve help.

509
00:26:57,157 --> 00:26:58,483
Everybody knew that I had went missing,

510
00:26:58,533 --> 00:26:59,818
but when I came back,

511
00:26:59,868 --> 00:27:01,528
it was not something that
everybody talked about.

512
00:27:01,578 --> 00:27:03,071
Nobody knew exactly what happened.

513
00:27:03,121 --> 00:27:04,864
They just, you went away,
something bad happened,

514
00:27:04,914 --> 00:27:06,950
and you came back and
you were Kendra again.

515
00:27:07,000 --> 00:27:07,909
You were, you know, you were great,

516
00:27:07,959 --> 00:27:09,411
you're tough, you got this.

517
00:27:09,461 --> 00:27:12,539
You know, and it was
a very toxic household

518
00:27:12,589 --> 00:27:14,708
that my friend lived in.

519
00:27:14,758 --> 00:27:15,959
Everybody was still a dancer,

520
00:27:16,009 --> 00:27:18,211
everybody was still drinking, doing drugs.

521
00:27:18,261 --> 00:27:21,423
I went back to the club for the
first week, but it was like,

522
00:27:21,473 --> 00:27:24,718
I felt every single
dirty look from these men

523
00:27:24,768 --> 00:27:26,678
and I felt every single dirty hand on me

524
00:27:26,728 --> 00:27:29,681
and it was just something overwhelming,

525
00:27:29,731 --> 00:27:32,601
like it was so overwhelming
I couldn't stay,

526
00:27:32,651 --> 00:27:33,602
I couldn't.

527
00:27:33,652 --> 00:27:36,855
It was to the point where I
was having so many PTSD attacks

528
00:27:36,905 --> 00:27:38,690
that I thought he followed
me back into town.

529
00:27:38,740 --> 00:27:42,319
Any tall dark person was
him and any dark corner

530
00:27:42,369 --> 00:27:44,070
had him standing in it.

531
00:27:44,120 --> 00:27:46,948
And every club, he was in his car waiting.

532
00:27:46,998 --> 00:27:51,086
So it was very, a very paranoid time.

533
00:27:56,341 --> 00:27:59,669
- It was very awkward
coming back into society.

534
00:27:59,719 --> 00:28:03,923
It was like I got out of a time capsule.

535
00:28:03,973 --> 00:28:06,801
I didn't know what was going
to happen or how long I was

536
00:28:06,851 --> 00:28:11,815
going to be safe, how long
I was going to, you know,

537
00:28:11,856 --> 00:28:13,316
be free.

538
00:28:19,155 --> 00:28:22,067
It wasn't until after I got home,

539
00:28:22,117 --> 00:28:25,528
I had one drink and it like
violently made me sick.

540
00:28:25,578 --> 00:28:27,113
I kept getting sick after that

541
00:28:27,163 --> 00:28:29,324
and I didn't understand what was going on.

542
00:28:29,374 --> 00:28:31,993
And, and my friend said,
"Let's just stop at the store.

543
00:28:32,043 --> 00:28:33,962
And get a pregnancy test."

544
00:28:38,133 --> 00:28:41,836
No, no, this can't be it.

545
00:28:41,886 --> 00:28:45,215
And it wasn't, it was never a,

546
00:28:45,265 --> 00:28:46,716
I don't want to have this baby.

547
00:28:46,766 --> 00:28:51,262
It was a... I feel like he
was going to share in my shame,

548
00:28:51,312 --> 00:28:53,014
like, how could I let him down

549
00:28:53,064 --> 00:28:54,224
and I haven't even had him yet?

550
00:28:54,274 --> 00:28:56,351
You know, I was already in love.

551
00:28:56,401 --> 00:29:00,146
Like I never, in my mind,
questioned giving up my son.

552
00:29:00,196 --> 00:29:03,233
It was from God to keep
my feet on the ground.

553
00:29:03,283 --> 00:29:05,026
He was my purpose,

554
00:29:05,076 --> 00:29:08,905
but I put off taking the test
because I knew there was going

555
00:29:08,955 --> 00:29:12,325
to come that day where I
would have to explain to him

556
00:29:12,375 --> 00:29:17,288
the way that people would look
at him when they found out

557
00:29:17,338 --> 00:29:18,957
or when he found out.

558
00:29:19,007 --> 00:29:21,751
And I thought, you know, oh, my God,

559
00:29:21,801 --> 00:29:23,461
what do I say? Do I lie?

560
00:29:23,511 --> 00:29:24,879
His dad died in the war.

561
00:29:24,929 --> 00:29:26,297
You know, do I just not tell him?

562
00:29:26,347 --> 00:29:28,258
Well, what if somebody else tells him?

563
00:29:28,308 --> 00:29:30,051
Everybody would tell
me, just lie, just lie.

564
00:29:30,101 --> 00:29:31,302
And I'm like, I can't do that.

565
00:29:31,352 --> 00:29:34,472
I can't, I'm not ashamed that I have him.

566
00:29:34,522 --> 00:29:36,015
He is my everything.

567
00:29:36,065 --> 00:29:40,478
He is what saved me from
going back home and overdosing

568
00:29:40,528 --> 00:29:42,439
on drugs and alcohol,

569
00:29:42,489 --> 00:29:43,898
and going right back to that lifestyle.

570
00:29:43,948 --> 00:29:48,953
And I have never been the same
person I was before my son,

571
00:29:49,162 --> 00:29:51,781
as I was after I found out I have him.

572
00:29:51,831 --> 00:29:55,618
And that purpose is to
make him grow into the man

573
00:29:55,668 --> 00:29:56,453
that he was meant to be.

574
00:29:56,503 --> 00:29:59,372
It was not his fault and he
does not have a capable bone

575
00:29:59,422 --> 00:30:02,834
in his body to do anything
like what this man did.

576
00:30:02,884 --> 00:30:04,252
That is not his father.

577
00:30:04,302 --> 00:30:05,879
That is not his dad.

578
00:30:05,929 --> 00:30:07,680
I'm those things to him.

579
00:30:14,521 --> 00:30:16,931
Escaping is never the end of the story.

580
00:30:16,981 --> 00:30:20,768
If they manage to get out
and what a big if that is,

581
00:30:20,818 --> 00:30:22,979
the life doesn't just disappear.

582
00:30:23,029 --> 00:30:25,648
Whether it's their
environment, their friends,

583
00:30:25,698 --> 00:30:29,569
or their family, they're
still vulnerable as targets.

584
00:30:29,619 --> 00:30:32,739
Kendra tells us she was saved by her son,

585
00:30:32,789 --> 00:30:35,825
but that saving grace is
missing for so many who fall

586
00:30:35,875 --> 00:30:39,087
right back into the life
they fought so hard to leave.

587
00:30:42,006 --> 00:30:44,717
Survivors need a safe place to go.

588
00:30:45,677 --> 00:30:47,345
So, shelters are key.

589
00:30:49,430 --> 00:30:50,840
The next leg of our journey,

590
00:30:50,890 --> 00:30:54,385
visiting shelters overseas,
took us to Ethiopia,

591
00:30:54,435 --> 00:30:57,514
where we visited Ellilta Women at Risk,

592
00:30:57,564 --> 00:31:00,183
a nonprofit shelter that
helps prostituted women

593
00:31:00,233 --> 00:31:03,895
by providing therapy and jobs.

594
00:31:03,945 --> 00:31:06,105
Among the survivors was Haymanot,

595
00:31:06,155 --> 00:31:07,482
who after nine years,

596
00:31:07,532 --> 00:31:09,450
had finally managed to escape the life.

597
00:31:12,954 --> 00:31:18,459
When I was 12,
my father's brother raped me.

598
00:31:19,043 --> 00:31:25,383
Then, my mother got
married and took me with her.

599
00:31:25,884 --> 00:31:32,173
I did not tell this secret to my mother,
that my uncle raped me.

600
00:31:32,223 --> 00:31:36,928
Afterwards, a person who had a
disagreement with her raped me.

601
00:31:36,978 --> 00:31:39,272
I was raped again.

602
00:31:39,897 --> 00:31:41,691
I was sick from this.

603
00:31:42,525 --> 00:31:44,360
I was seriously sick.

604
00:31:44,903 --> 00:31:49,566
I was raped 3 times when I was just 12.

605
00:31:49,616 --> 00:31:53,036
The third time was my cousin's husband.

606
00:31:54,329 --> 00:31:58,241
Afterwards a person
told me about Addis Ababa.

607
00:31:58,291 --> 00:32:03,087
I was in Jimma when I heard about Addis
Ababa. I considered it to be like America.

608
00:32:05,548 --> 00:32:06,332
But moving to the big city

609
00:32:06,382 --> 00:32:08,876
wasn't the transition she hoped for.

610
00:32:08,926 --> 00:32:11,462
Haymanot spent her first
year in Addis Ababa,

611
00:32:11,512 --> 00:32:14,757
living with a mechanic
who abused her daily.

612
00:32:14,807 --> 00:32:18,636
She got away from him, but only
by falling in with an agent,

613
00:32:18,686 --> 00:32:21,514
the Ethiopian term for a pimp.

614
00:32:21,564 --> 00:32:23,766
While working the streets as a prostitute,

615
00:32:23,816 --> 00:32:26,227
a man attacked her with no provocation,

616
00:32:26,277 --> 00:32:29,364
destroying many of her
teeth on her upper jaw.

617
00:32:30,281 --> 00:32:33,818
I kept thinking, how can you heal?

618
00:32:33,868 --> 00:32:36,704
How can you be happy if you cannot smile?

619
00:32:38,790 --> 00:32:41,668
So what would it mean
for her to have teeth?

620
00:32:47,090 --> 00:32:52,261
As I haven’t laughed for a long time,
I’ll be happy.

621
00:32:55,431 --> 00:32:58,301
This is my answer,
and lots of women know about this.

622
00:32:58,351 --> 00:33:03,723
And when they ask me why I don’t laugh,
I ask them what’s there to laugh about.

623
00:33:03,773 --> 00:33:08,778
Oh I would laugh very much
because I would be very happy.

624
00:33:15,451 --> 00:33:16,527
After our visit with Haymanot,

625
00:33:16,577 --> 00:33:19,030
we were deeply touched by
her story and felt compelled

626
00:33:19,080 --> 00:33:22,200
to fundraise for the 15
teeth and five root canals

627
00:33:22,250 --> 00:33:23,910
she needed.

628
00:33:23,960 --> 00:33:25,411
We launched a Facebook fundraiser

629
00:33:25,461 --> 00:33:27,914
and thanks to 49 caring individuals,

630
00:33:27,964 --> 00:33:31,342
we were able to cover
her dental treatment.

631
00:33:59,245 --> 00:34:02,782
Now, with the education I have received.

632
00:34:02,832 --> 00:34:06,419
Now I am going to training.

633
00:34:06,794 --> 00:34:08,034
It’s called practical training…

634
00:34:08,838 --> 00:34:13,551
Housekeeping.
I am going to train in cleaning.

635
00:34:15,845 --> 00:34:17,588
When we returned to Ethiopia,

636
00:34:17,638 --> 00:34:20,299
five months later, to
attend her graduation,

637
00:34:20,349 --> 00:34:22,226
she was blossoming.

638
00:34:43,289 --> 00:34:49,337
- Besides Ellilta, you went through training
and have now graduated, how does it feel?

639
00:34:49,754 --> 00:34:52,298
I am so overjoyed.

640
00:34:52,507 --> 00:34:57,887
I have never once been happy
in my entire life.

641
00:34:58,012 --> 00:35:02,967
But now I am so happy and filled with joy.

642
00:35:03,017 --> 00:35:06,854
I will work and provide for myself.
I won't be idle from now onwards.

643
00:35:12,902 --> 00:35:13,686
From Ethiopia,

644
00:35:13,736 --> 00:35:16,814
we went to India where we
connected with an organization

645
00:35:16,864 --> 00:35:19,942
called Kranti, which means revolutionary,

646
00:35:19,992 --> 00:35:22,028
that provides shelter, therapy,

647
00:35:22,078 --> 00:35:24,655
and a new beginning to survivors.

648
00:35:24,705 --> 00:35:27,250
It was there that we met Zarina.

649
00:35:29,710 --> 00:35:32,463
How did you end up here?
At what age were you sold?

650
00:35:32,797 --> 00:35:34,257
- I've to tell that?
- Yeah.

651
00:35:35,132 --> 00:35:39,303
I was eight years old when I was sold off.

652
00:35:39,929 --> 00:35:42,765
Then, at the age of eleven,

653
00:35:43,057 --> 00:35:49,105
at that very place,
I was forced into prostitution.

654
00:35:49,438 --> 00:35:50,481
I started working.

655
00:35:51,691 --> 00:35:54,986
After a few days,
a customer of mine took me with him

656
00:35:55,319 --> 00:35:58,114
and married me.

657
00:35:58,614 --> 00:36:01,117
After my marriage, I became a mother.

658
00:36:01,159 --> 00:36:04,453
My husband was a bad father
to my children.

659
00:36:05,454 --> 00:36:08,124
I was forced to come back to prostitution.

660
00:36:08,791 --> 00:36:11,752
I came back to it and raised my children.

661
00:36:14,213 --> 00:36:15,665
We were guided through Mumbai's

662
00:36:15,715 --> 00:36:18,125
notorious Red Light District.

663
00:36:18,175 --> 00:36:19,335
It was chilling.

664
00:36:19,385 --> 00:36:22,213
I used my phone sparingly
to take some video,

665
00:36:22,263 --> 00:36:24,507
but was asked not to use it too much

666
00:36:24,557 --> 00:36:26,884
as it would upset the ladies living there.

667
00:36:26,934 --> 00:36:27,718
People are here,

668
00:36:27,768 --> 00:36:28,636
is it okay to film?

669
00:36:28,686 --> 00:36:31,063
Okay, do I go all the
way up or right here?

670
00:36:34,400 --> 00:36:35,893
We went into the living quarters

671
00:36:35,943 --> 00:36:37,987
of prostituted women.

672
00:36:43,492 --> 00:36:44,318
This is a family room?

673
00:36:44,368 --> 00:36:45,745
Yes.

674
00:36:46,746 --> 00:36:48,948
- Sometimes, there is a pimp
or madam involved

675
00:36:48,998 --> 00:36:51,284
and sometimes, prostitution is their,

676
00:36:51,334 --> 00:36:54,370
or their family's, only means of survival.

677
00:36:54,420 --> 00:36:57,506
It's what Angie calls,
"survival trafficking."

678
00:36:57,840 --> 00:37:02,887
- The women do this
just for the sake of their children.

679
00:37:04,222 --> 00:37:07,183
They don't do it as a hobby,
or because they like it.

680
00:37:07,266 --> 00:37:13,105
They are in this profession
to raise their kids.

681
00:37:16,150 --> 00:37:18,903
I retired from prostitution
five years ago.

682
00:37:19,237 --> 00:37:20,529
Now I'm working at Kranti.

683
00:37:28,871 --> 00:37:30,948
Zarina's mission now is to help those

684
00:37:30,998 --> 00:37:34,543
who are still in prostitution
get out of the life.

685
00:37:35,378 --> 00:37:37,413
We did what we could to help her mission.

686
00:37:37,463 --> 00:37:40,750
With my spiritual teacher
spending time with the girls,

687
00:37:40,800 --> 00:37:43,085
teaching them healing
techniques through breathing,

688
00:37:43,135 --> 00:37:45,054
yoga, and meditation.

689
00:37:53,562 --> 00:37:55,473
The same teachings and
techniques that he taught me

690
00:37:55,523 --> 00:37:58,609
to fight my own pain and PTSD.

691
00:38:00,069 --> 00:38:02,480
I fell in love with the
way Kranti inspires girls

692
00:38:02,530 --> 00:38:04,899
to be revolutionary.

693
00:38:04,949 --> 00:38:07,151
The way they teach them
that they can bring

694
00:38:07,201 --> 00:38:08,027
about world change,

695
00:38:08,077 --> 00:38:10,655
that their past or the
situations they come from

696
00:38:10,705 --> 00:38:13,908
does not stop them from
achieving their dreams.

697
00:38:13,958 --> 00:38:17,420
The women there, like all
survivors, inspire me.

698
00:38:25,469 --> 00:38:27,588
After spending five days
with the Kranti girls,

699
00:38:27,638 --> 00:38:31,267
we took them out to a nice
restaurant for our last meal.

700
00:38:33,602 --> 00:38:36,647
It was the best way to
end our trip to India.

701
00:38:50,494 --> 00:38:53,030
- Until I learned about
it in nursing school

702
00:38:53,080 --> 00:38:55,491
and found out the term "human trafficking,"

703
00:38:55,541 --> 00:38:56,784
I had never even thought

704
00:38:56,834 --> 00:38:59,078
that I was a human trafficking victim

705
00:38:59,128 --> 00:39:00,371
or that I was commercially
sexually exploited.

706
00:39:00,421 --> 00:39:02,415
Those are big words that
we don't understand.

707
00:39:02,465 --> 00:39:03,749
You were surviving, you were hustling,

708
00:39:03,799 --> 00:39:05,459
you were doing what you had to do.

709
00:39:05,509 --> 00:39:07,586
And even as a child, I
thought it was my fault.

710
00:39:07,636 --> 00:39:09,722
I thought I chose it.

711
00:39:15,019 --> 00:39:16,303
Despite the amazing work shelters

712
00:39:16,353 --> 00:39:18,639
do to help survivors heal,

713
00:39:18,689 --> 00:39:20,683
there are many survivors who are not ready

714
00:39:20,733 --> 00:39:22,902
for any help at all.

715
00:39:24,737 --> 00:39:26,105
When I was 11,

716
00:39:26,155 --> 00:39:29,567
I learned a close friend was
being abused by their father.

717
00:39:29,617 --> 00:39:32,778
My parents talked about it with
me, sharing the gross acts,

718
00:39:32,828 --> 00:39:34,739
to illustrate that those things were wrong

719
00:39:34,789 --> 00:39:37,325
and shouldn't happen to a child.

720
00:39:37,375 --> 00:39:39,035
My body froze.

721
00:39:39,085 --> 00:39:41,328
I felt a ball in my throat.

722
00:39:41,378 --> 00:39:42,872
I wanted to tell them so badly

723
00:39:42,922 --> 00:39:45,299
that something had happened to me.

724
00:39:46,675 --> 00:39:48,552
I remained silent.

725
00:39:50,721 --> 00:39:54,341
How can you heal from a pain
you refuse to acknowledge?

726
00:39:54,391 --> 00:39:57,144
A hurt you don't fully understand?

727
00:40:00,314 --> 00:40:03,017
- Looking back as an adult,
I know that I was a child,

728
00:40:03,067 --> 00:40:05,311
I was a teenager, I didn't
choose those things,

729
00:40:05,361 --> 00:40:06,437
but I felt guilty,

730
00:40:06,487 --> 00:40:08,647
and I felt ashamed because
I thought that the things

731
00:40:08,697 --> 00:40:10,858
that were happening to me were my fault.

732
00:40:10,908 --> 00:40:13,444
And I didn't want anybody
to know. I was embarrassed.

733
00:40:13,494 --> 00:40:15,780
Growing up a military brat and you know,

734
00:40:15,830 --> 00:40:16,906
your dad's a Marine,

735
00:40:16,956 --> 00:40:18,824
you kind of already have that mentality.

736
00:40:18,874 --> 00:40:21,619
Like your problems aren't as
big as you think they are.

737
00:40:21,669 --> 00:40:24,163
You know, you need to be a
big girl about everything,

738
00:40:24,213 --> 00:40:26,791
you know, not everybody
asked me about it either.

739
00:40:26,841 --> 00:40:28,959
So it was easier to try to,

740
00:40:29,009 --> 00:40:33,013
to go back to what I thought
normal life could be like.

741
00:40:34,306 --> 00:40:37,134
Did you ever feel normal after that?

742
00:40:37,184 --> 00:40:39,428
I don't think I've felt normal.

743
00:40:39,478 --> 00:40:41,514
I think the moments that I feel normal,

744
00:40:41,564 --> 00:40:46,060
I feel are distractions, are just events

745
00:40:46,110 --> 00:40:49,021
and occurrences that get me
from one moment to the next.

746
00:40:49,071 --> 00:40:50,689
Then, when everything's silent again,

747
00:40:50,739 --> 00:40:52,566
then you kind of sit with the reality

748
00:40:52,616 --> 00:40:53,776
of what happened to you.

749
00:40:53,826 --> 00:40:55,528
But then also, I'm the
type of person where if I,

750
00:40:55,578 --> 00:40:58,030
when I sit with those feelings
and emotions and I'm like,

751
00:40:58,080 --> 00:41:01,033
no, no, I'm okay, you know,
I'm not what happened to me.

752
00:41:01,083 --> 00:41:02,618
I'm bigger than that.

753
00:41:02,668 --> 00:41:04,954
But it was that mentality
that just helped me

754
00:41:05,004 --> 00:41:05,746
bury it further.

755
00:41:05,796 --> 00:41:07,957
Instead of saying "No,
that did happen to me

756
00:41:08,007 --> 00:41:09,375
and it needs to be felt,

757
00:41:09,425 --> 00:41:12,044
and it needs to be accepted,
and it needs to be respected,

758
00:41:12,094 --> 00:41:13,879
and it needs to be acknowledged."

759
00:41:13,929 --> 00:41:16,966
And because back then, there
was no sex trafficking.

760
00:41:17,016 --> 00:41:19,093
I was kidnapped and I was raped.

761
00:41:19,143 --> 00:41:22,304
So when time moves forward
and then the Me Too Movement

762
00:41:22,354 --> 00:41:24,140
rolls out and then
everybody starts talking

763
00:41:24,190 --> 00:41:26,725
about sex trafficking, I
had to sit with myself like,

764
00:41:26,775 --> 00:41:29,019
"Is that what happened to me?

765
00:41:29,069 --> 00:41:31,021
I got sex trafficked?"

766
00:41:31,071 --> 00:41:33,274
And then you start
realizing there's a name

767
00:41:33,324 --> 00:41:36,861
and there's a following of people

768
00:41:36,911 --> 00:41:38,237
that have had this happen to them,

769
00:41:38,287 --> 00:41:39,530
and then you don't feel so alone.

770
00:41:39,580 --> 00:41:41,365
And then you don't feel so shameful.

771
00:41:41,415 --> 00:41:44,326
And then you start to
understand what happened to you

772
00:41:44,376 --> 00:41:46,036
and then you start to put
down some of that guilt

773
00:41:46,086 --> 00:41:47,329
that you've carried for so long

774
00:41:47,379 --> 00:41:49,623
that so many other people
put on you, the cop,

775
00:41:49,673 --> 00:41:50,624
the club owners,

776
00:41:50,674 --> 00:41:53,544
everybody that made me feel
like what happened to me

777
00:41:53,594 --> 00:41:55,379
was my fault.

778
00:41:55,429 --> 00:41:57,464
Seeing so many other
empowered women come forward

779
00:41:57,514 --> 00:42:01,677
and put their traffickers in
prison, made me feel empowered.

780
00:42:01,727 --> 00:42:03,262
Like, you know, this wasn't my fault.

781
00:42:03,312 --> 00:42:04,972
I didn't do this to myself, you know?

782
00:42:05,022 --> 00:42:09,101
So that kind of helps you not feel normal,

783
00:42:09,151 --> 00:42:12,530
but a part of a society that
understands how badly you hurt.

784
00:42:17,952 --> 00:42:22,156
- With my PTSD, I have
like blackout memories.

785
00:42:22,206 --> 00:42:25,201
It's like, is there something
wrong with my brain?

786
00:42:25,251 --> 00:42:27,703
Like, and is it from the trauma

787
00:42:27,753 --> 00:42:29,914
or is it from the blows to the head?

788
00:42:29,964 --> 00:42:33,042
I can't remember a lot of things.

789
00:42:33,092 --> 00:42:36,462
And I can't remember like,

790
00:42:36,512 --> 00:42:40,683
just like memories of me and my family.

791
00:42:42,601 --> 00:42:45,888
Some things I want to remember,
but maybe like she's saying,

792
00:42:45,938 --> 00:42:49,350
like, maybe I am, you know,
protecting things that I,

793
00:42:49,400 --> 00:42:51,227
I don't want to relive,

794
00:42:51,277 --> 00:42:58,200
but I have to face my pain
to get through my pain.

795
00:42:58,742 --> 00:43:01,036
Like I just want to be free and healthy.

796
00:43:02,079 --> 00:43:06,700
And to think something's wrong
with your brain is scary.

797
00:43:06,750 --> 00:43:08,961
Like, will it get worse when I get older?

798
00:43:11,046 --> 00:43:12,706
I'd be curious to,

799
00:43:12,756 --> 00:43:14,667
there's some doctors, like Doctor Amen

800
00:43:14,717 --> 00:43:16,377
and they actually do...

801
00:43:16,427 --> 00:43:17,253
Studies.

802
00:43:17,303 --> 00:43:18,754
Brain scans.

803
00:43:18,804 --> 00:43:19,838
I'm going to try and reach out to him

804
00:43:19,888 --> 00:43:22,174
to see if there's something he can do.

805
00:43:22,224 --> 00:43:25,302
I don't know if we can.
He's in California.

806
00:43:25,352 --> 00:43:29,223
But... 'cause I think it brings,
in some ways,

807
00:43:29,273 --> 00:43:32,059
some comfort to know, clarity,
and you know, it's not,

808
00:43:32,109 --> 00:43:34,945
it's just to get some answers.

809
00:43:40,951 --> 00:43:41,785
You out?

810
00:43:47,166 --> 00:43:49,576
We've gotta get you some water.

811
00:43:49,626 --> 00:43:52,338
Come on in here.

812
00:43:56,300 --> 00:43:58,168
- Do you want to position
my hands in any way?

813
00:43:58,218 --> 00:44:00,921
- Those would just go down by
your side or on your belly,

814
00:44:00,971 --> 00:44:02,923
wherever it feels more comfortable.

815
00:44:02,973 --> 00:44:03,757
Just making sure your head,

816
00:44:03,807 --> 00:44:06,051
you want to kind of straight
up from the shoulders,

817
00:44:06,101 --> 00:44:07,936
facing forward, yep.

818
00:44:21,492 --> 00:44:22,910
Angela, you're all done.

819
00:44:28,707 --> 00:44:31,952
You did a really good job of
holding still, we got good images

820
00:44:32,002 --> 00:44:34,254
Ok.

821
00:44:38,842 --> 00:44:40,502
We look at your brain...

822
00:44:40,552 --> 00:44:42,805
I've been hit back there.

823
00:44:44,098 --> 00:44:45,716
At rest.

824
00:44:45,766 --> 00:44:47,184
There's a lot.

825
00:44:49,103 --> 00:44:50,846
- But you see, one side
more than the other.

826
00:44:50,896 --> 00:44:52,147
What does that mean?

827
00:44:53,107 --> 00:44:57,061
That means you got hit right here.

828
00:44:57,111 --> 00:44:59,104
It doesn't take a rocket scientist to say,

829
00:44:59,154 --> 00:45:01,148
"Oh, she's got emotional trauma," right?

830
00:45:01,198 --> 00:45:02,066
'Cause you do.

831
00:45:02,116 --> 00:45:03,192
Yeah.

832
00:45:03,242 --> 00:45:04,526
But you can actually see the signature

833
00:45:04,576 --> 00:45:05,819
- of it
- A lifetime of it.

834
00:45:05,869 --> 00:45:07,571
in your brain.

835
00:45:07,621 --> 00:45:09,990
We need to take care of this PTSD stuff

836
00:45:10,040 --> 00:45:13,085
that I think is real, that you have.

837
00:45:15,170 --> 00:45:16,330
And that's where something like EMDR

838
00:45:16,380 --> 00:45:17,998
can be really helpful.

839
00:45:18,048 --> 00:45:20,626
And then, I also talk
about killing the ants,

840
00:45:20,676 --> 00:45:23,253
automatic negative thoughts.

841
00:45:23,303 --> 00:45:25,798
That's why, when you feel
sad when you feel mad...

842
00:45:25,848 --> 00:45:30,594
- I have something in my own
mind that I created to do that.

843
00:45:30,644 --> 00:45:34,890
So anytime I think something
toxic or negative,

844
00:45:34,940 --> 00:45:36,683
I just pray.

845
00:45:36,733 --> 00:45:40,229
So I don't know that's my home remedy.

846
00:45:40,279 --> 00:45:42,439
I would just pray like
that instantly, quick,

847
00:45:42,489 --> 00:45:46,735
pray like, and please reverse
whatever I was thinking and.

848
00:45:46,785 --> 00:45:48,237
If that works, I love that.

849
00:45:48,287 --> 00:45:51,615
Given what you've been
through, the strangulation,

850
00:45:51,665 --> 00:45:54,868
the multiple head injuries,
the substance abuse,

851
00:45:54,918 --> 00:45:58,497
the chronic stress that you've been under,

852
00:45:58,547 --> 00:46:01,208
we both should be on
our knees thanking God

853
00:46:01,258 --> 00:46:03,252
your brain's this good, so.

854
00:46:03,302 --> 00:46:04,294
Thank you.

855
00:46:04,344 --> 00:46:06,130
- I would bet if you do
what I asked you to do,

856
00:46:06,180 --> 00:46:08,674
six months later, your brain
is going to be healthy.

857
00:46:08,724 --> 00:46:09,508
Healthier.

858
00:46:09,558 --> 00:46:12,269
- Well actually, it'll be healthier
tomorrow if you sleep tonight.

859
00:46:13,645 --> 00:46:14,980
Yes.

860
00:46:19,026 --> 00:46:21,687
- I'm disappointed to say I
didn't have a great therapist.

861
00:46:21,737 --> 00:46:23,730
Instead of helping me figure
out all these emotions,

862
00:46:23,780 --> 00:46:26,066
she just taught me to bury them.

863
00:46:26,116 --> 00:46:28,110
She was like, "Well, maybe
you should get a hobby."

864
00:46:28,160 --> 00:46:29,236
I was like, "That's not,

865
00:46:29,286 --> 00:46:30,738
that's not what we're here to deal with."

866
00:46:30,788 --> 00:46:32,489
She said, "But a hobby will distract you."

867
00:46:32,539 --> 00:46:35,200
I said, "But distracting myself
Is what I did for so long.

868
00:46:35,250 --> 00:46:37,911
I need to be so knee deep in the hurt

869
00:46:37,961 --> 00:46:40,205
that I feel like I'm not going to breathe

870
00:46:40,255 --> 00:46:42,207
so that I can breathe."

871
00:46:42,257 --> 00:46:44,293
And she told me, she said,

872
00:46:44,343 --> 00:46:47,129
"Well, you're such an empowered
woman, you're so strong,

873
00:46:47,179 --> 00:46:49,673
you work out, what are you afraid of?"

874
00:46:49,723 --> 00:46:54,728
When she said that, it
literally kept me up all night.

875
00:46:55,646 --> 00:46:57,314
I was like, "What am I afraid of?

876
00:46:58,941 --> 00:47:00,017
He's so much older.

877
00:47:00,067 --> 00:47:02,060
I'm so much physically more strong.

878
00:47:02,110 --> 00:47:05,397
I'm so well equipped, my
house, my alarm, my security.

879
00:47:05,447 --> 00:47:07,983
I'm surrounded by cops in my neighborhood

880
00:47:08,033 --> 00:47:09,193
to the left of me, the right of me,

881
00:47:09,243 --> 00:47:10,903
across the street from me.

882
00:47:10,953 --> 00:47:12,112
What am I afraid of?"

883
00:47:12,162 --> 00:47:15,365
And it's, I'm afraid of my past.

884
00:47:15,415 --> 00:47:17,493
I'm afraid of the person I was.

885
00:47:17,543 --> 00:47:19,661
I'm afraid of dealing with those emotions.

886
00:47:19,711 --> 00:47:22,247
I'm not afraid of him.

887
00:47:22,297 --> 00:47:25,584
I'm not afraid of him finding
me or him encountering me.

888
00:47:25,634 --> 00:47:28,712
I'm more afraid of dealing
what I didn't deal with.

889
00:47:28,762 --> 00:47:31,515
That's what hurts the most.

890
00:47:32,391 --> 00:47:33,467
And are you working through that

891
00:47:33,517 --> 00:47:36,136
with, do you have a trauma
informed therapist

892
00:47:36,186 --> 00:47:37,304
at this point?

893
00:47:37,354 --> 00:47:42,359
- No, I have a situational
training instructor

894
00:47:42,776 --> 00:47:45,979
I brought her sight unseen.

895
00:47:46,029 --> 00:47:48,649
Mutual friends told me that
she was a quality person

896
00:47:48,699 --> 00:47:50,984
that I should help.

897
00:47:51,034 --> 00:47:52,819
And so, I wanted her to
show her a little bit

898
00:47:52,869 --> 00:47:57,282
about what I do and I
read people for a living.

899
00:47:57,332 --> 00:48:01,411
So I was able to find out really quickly

900
00:48:01,461 --> 00:48:03,747
as I'm just doing the intro,

901
00:48:03,797 --> 00:48:06,458
that there was a little
more of like an onion

902
00:48:06,508 --> 00:48:07,793
to peel back the layers.

903
00:48:07,843 --> 00:48:09,920
And so, I just kind of
let it happen organically

904
00:48:09,970 --> 00:48:11,255
where I was just like,

905
00:48:11,305 --> 00:48:12,839
"Okay, this is flashlight,"

906
00:48:12,889 --> 00:48:16,718
and her reactions to the
simple training that I had,

907
00:48:16,768 --> 00:48:18,846
I could tell there was something deeper.

908
00:48:18,896 --> 00:48:21,098
So I just let it kinda,

909
00:48:21,148 --> 00:48:24,526
I let her share with me
when she felt comfortable.

910
00:48:28,697 --> 00:48:31,441
- Hey, hey, can you wait
a minute so I can go by...

911
00:48:31,491 --> 00:48:32,734
And go get into my car?

912
00:48:32,784 --> 00:48:34,695
Hey, excuse me.

913
00:48:34,745 --> 00:48:35,529
Whoa, whoa.

914
00:48:35,579 --> 00:48:37,072
- Give me a minute, let
me get to my car, okay?

915
00:48:37,122 --> 00:48:39,366
You can go ahead and go
wherever you're going.

916
00:48:39,416 --> 00:48:40,617
I'm just here looking for some cans.

917
00:48:40,667 --> 00:48:41,918
No, no, no, you're good.

918
00:48:42,753 --> 00:48:47,215
Bye, have a nice night.

919
00:48:48,216 --> 00:48:49,343
Scenario.

920
00:48:55,015 --> 00:48:57,676
That was cool, okay, what'd you see?

921
00:48:57,726 --> 00:48:59,511
The rule of thumb is you resort back

922
00:48:59,561 --> 00:49:02,890
to your lowest level of training
when you're under stress,

923
00:49:02,940 --> 00:49:04,016
the lowest level.

924
00:49:04,066 --> 00:49:07,436
And then, you're going to
be half as good as that

925
00:49:07,486 --> 00:49:08,979
when the time comes.

926
00:49:09,029 --> 00:49:10,856
So we call that the 50% rule.

927
00:49:10,906 --> 00:49:13,025
You're going to resort to
your lowest level of training

928
00:49:13,075 --> 00:49:14,818
and then you're going to be half as good.

929
00:49:14,868 --> 00:49:17,070
And then Murphy could step in there.

930
00:49:17,120 --> 00:49:19,865
If it can and will happen, it will.

931
00:49:19,915 --> 00:49:23,585
So that's how we practice
in here and we role play.

932
00:49:33,512 --> 00:49:34,421
Quit resisting!

933
00:49:34,471 --> 00:49:36,131
Quit resisting!

934
00:49:36,181 --> 00:49:37,432
Quit resisting!

935
00:49:43,230 --> 00:49:45,440
Scenario.

936
00:49:50,153 --> 00:49:51,697
I'm so sorry.

937
00:49:54,783 --> 00:49:56,318
And when you did and you actually

938
00:49:56,368 --> 00:49:59,279
grabbed up I was like, "Oh, no, okay,

939
00:49:59,329 --> 00:50:00,697
how do I get out of this?"

940
00:50:00,747 --> 00:50:03,200
Okay, I know I've spent so much time

941
00:50:03,250 --> 00:50:05,702
with all these drills actually,

942
00:50:05,752 --> 00:50:07,371
but you know, it's different.

943
00:50:07,421 --> 00:50:10,415
That whole situation is so different.

944
00:50:10,465 --> 00:50:11,750
So, situational training,

945
00:50:11,800 --> 00:50:15,462
I think has been better
than any therapist I've had.

946
00:50:15,512 --> 00:50:19,091
It literally ripped out my insides.

947
00:50:19,141 --> 00:50:21,718
I was so exposed in front
of all these people.

948
00:50:21,768 --> 00:50:23,595
We trained in so many things,
especially, you know,

949
00:50:23,645 --> 00:50:25,472
sex trafficking things.

950
00:50:25,522 --> 00:50:29,893
And I cried and I screamed
and I got to wear the gear

951
00:50:29,943 --> 00:50:31,436
and you know, carry the gun.

952
00:50:31,486 --> 00:50:33,230
And what would I do in this situation?

953
00:50:33,280 --> 00:50:34,231
And how do I walk to my car?

954
00:50:34,281 --> 00:50:35,273
And what do I look for?

955
00:50:35,323 --> 00:50:39,486
And doing all those things
allowed those scary parts

956
00:50:39,536 --> 00:50:43,699
to not be so loud because
if that happens, it's okay,

957
00:50:43,749 --> 00:50:44,916
you know, I know what to do.

958
00:50:47,252 --> 00:50:48,495
For Kendra,

959
00:50:48,545 --> 00:50:51,540
her way of moving on was to
focus on preparing herself

960
00:50:51,590 --> 00:50:55,377
to be ready if a situation
like hers arose again.

961
00:50:55,427 --> 00:50:59,715
For Angie, she focused on
healing her body and mind.

962
00:50:59,765 --> 00:51:03,301
Haymanot hoped that leaving
the big city of Addis Ababa

963
00:51:03,351 --> 00:51:06,563
and reconnecting with her
family would bring her joy.

964
00:51:06,897 --> 00:51:11,026
- I am so happy that I get to
go to Jimma, it feels like a dream.

965
00:51:11,193 --> 00:51:14,738
When I get there my dreams
shall become a reality.

966
00:51:15,113 --> 00:51:19,151
And I am going there
after 10 or more years,

967
00:51:19,201 --> 00:51:21,828
so it's a different feeling.

968
00:51:22,537 --> 00:51:24,489
But she learned that even with healing,

969
00:51:24,539 --> 00:51:27,000
there is new pain to be found.

970
00:51:35,675 --> 00:51:36,885
Dad!

971
00:51:37,469 --> 00:51:39,763
- How are you?
- I'm good!

972
00:51:41,223 --> 00:51:42,174
Daddy, how have you been?

973
00:51:42,224 --> 00:51:43,600
Are you alive?

974
00:51:43,892 --> 00:51:46,019
- I am.
- Oh!

975
00:51:47,938 --> 00:51:48,722
How are you?

976
00:51:48,772 --> 00:51:49,731
Are you alright?

977
00:51:55,487 --> 00:51:58,448
- It's okay.
- I know I was not able to be here for anyone.

978
00:52:00,242 --> 00:52:02,410
I didn't bury my brother, or anyone else.

979
00:52:04,454 --> 00:52:05,694
It's okay, please just drop it.

980
00:52:06,206 --> 00:52:10,210
I am always crying because of this,
it really hurts me.

981
00:52:16,132 --> 00:52:18,426
I wasn't able to be there for him!

982
00:52:19,553 --> 00:52:25,517
He loved me so much, he went all the way
to Addis Ababa to look for me.

983
00:52:26,309 --> 00:52:30,188
He used to tell me that we will be
able to live together one day.

984
00:52:30,230 --> 00:52:34,484
He said, "We will live together, okay?"
He used to call me "Momma."

985
00:52:35,110 --> 00:52:38,989
Please stop, I have just started
to be okay with this.

986
00:52:40,198 --> 00:52:44,286
It was all for the best,
everything will come to pass.

987
00:52:47,205 --> 00:52:49,950
Pain is hidden beneath the
surface and sometimes it's buried

988
00:52:50,000 --> 00:52:52,452
and pushed down so deep
that we forget about it

989
00:52:52,502 --> 00:52:54,579
in order to survive.

990
00:52:54,629 --> 00:52:57,499
I know I'm not the only one.

991
00:52:57,549 --> 00:53:00,127
While on our way to Angie's
very first interview,

992
00:53:00,177 --> 00:53:02,129
executive producer, Jeannie Mai,

993
00:53:02,179 --> 00:53:05,223
asked me to reveal my childhood trauma.

994
00:53:08,184 --> 00:53:09,469
So I'm just sharing my story

995
00:53:09,519 --> 00:53:11,263
of what happened to me
when I was six years old.

996
00:53:11,313 --> 00:53:16,318
So basically a painter
took me into my bathroom.

997
00:53:16,484 --> 00:53:18,019
And that's when it started. He...

998
00:53:18,069 --> 00:53:20,021
You want me to go into the details?

999
00:53:20,071 --> 00:53:20,772
If you don't mind?

1000
00:53:20,822 --> 00:53:21,606
Okay. Yeah.

1001
00:53:21,656 --> 00:53:22,774
- Honestly, it actually
helps me feel better

1002
00:53:22,824 --> 00:53:24,117
when I hear somebody.

1003
00:53:24,534 --> 00:53:27,245
So, I just have to go to that place.

1004
00:53:28,955 --> 00:53:32,826
So, the painter takes me into the bathroom.

1005
00:53:32,876 --> 00:53:35,787
He's wearing his red
shirt, his black pants

1006
00:53:35,837 --> 00:53:39,040
and he props me up, he
puts the toilet seat down.

1007
00:53:39,090 --> 00:53:42,752
And he puts me on there to stand.

1008
00:53:42,802 --> 00:53:46,798
And that was like the first
time, like, a kiss happened.

1009
00:53:46,848 --> 00:53:50,135
So I felt his tongue, I felt all of that.

1010
00:53:50,185 --> 00:53:51,845
And I was just like,

1011
00:53:51,895 --> 00:53:54,931
you know my mouth is open and
he's just making out with me.

1012
00:53:54,981 --> 00:53:56,099
And I'm just like standing there.

1013
00:53:56,149 --> 00:53:56,600
At six years old.

1014
00:53:56,650 --> 00:53:58,109
At six years old, yeah.

1015
00:53:58,235 --> 00:53:58,643
Oh my god.

1016
00:53:58,693 --> 00:54:02,113
And then he put me on the ground.

1017
00:54:02,572 --> 00:54:05,108
And then, well because
I was wearing a dress

1018
00:54:05,158 --> 00:54:08,328
he rolled it up, took my underwear off.

1019
00:54:09,246 --> 00:54:12,040
And he put his mouth there.

1020
00:54:12,958 --> 00:54:15,502
And I just remember just
looking off to the side.

1021
00:54:24,594 --> 00:54:29,182
And then he removed his
pants and his penis was hard.

1022
00:54:30,767 --> 00:54:33,186
And then he tried to put it in my front

1023
00:54:35,063 --> 00:54:37,691
and he tried to put it in my back.

1024
00:54:38,900 --> 00:54:40,860
I felt empty inside.

1025
00:54:42,320 --> 00:54:44,364
I felt dead inside.

1026
00:54:48,493 --> 00:54:52,914
Should I tell grandma, should I tell mom?

1027
00:54:54,416 --> 00:54:58,920
I couldn't, he told me he would kill me.

1028
00:55:01,464 --> 00:55:03,425
I was six years old.

1029
00:55:11,057 --> 00:55:12,217
Like you can say it,

1030
00:55:12,267 --> 00:55:13,927
like there are times
where you're just like,

1031
00:55:13,977 --> 00:55:16,972
oh, I was sexually abused and
it's just like surface, right?

1032
00:55:17,022 --> 00:55:19,224
But of course this is a very transparent,

1033
00:55:19,274 --> 00:55:20,225
honest conversation,

1034
00:55:20,275 --> 00:55:22,602
so the vulnerability comes out.

1035
00:55:22,652 --> 00:55:23,486
Yeah.

1036
00:55:29,993 --> 00:55:33,113
- I could have totally been
a victim of trafficking

1037
00:55:33,163 --> 00:55:35,240
if I was exposed to it
because I was enough

1038
00:55:35,290 --> 00:55:36,825
of a victim of sexual abuse

1039
00:55:36,875 --> 00:55:38,326
because I was raised to be...

1040
00:55:38,376 --> 00:55:39,703
You would've been an easy target.

1041
00:55:39,753 --> 00:55:40,537
Easy target.

1042
00:55:40,587 --> 00:55:42,288
- Right, like okay, so
what would the signs be?

1043
00:55:42,338 --> 00:55:44,624
A guy would have just known

1044
00:55:44,674 --> 00:55:47,669
like through your timidness and your,

1045
00:55:47,719 --> 00:55:51,423
your demeanor and your
submissiveness, just being like,

1046
00:55:51,473 --> 00:55:54,759
'cause a lot of the girls that
were trafficked around me,

1047
00:55:54,809 --> 00:55:56,553
they, I would say half over half

1048
00:55:56,603 --> 00:56:00,181
of them were sexually
abused and in their youth,

1049
00:56:00,231 --> 00:56:03,977
and they had lower self-esteem.

1050
00:56:04,027 --> 00:56:05,645
Even if they were beautiful,

1051
00:56:05,695 --> 00:56:07,564
they would just have a
little shyness to them.

1052
00:56:07,614 --> 00:56:11,901
And for some reason, the
traffickers just had a sixth sense

1053
00:56:11,951 --> 00:56:13,820
to be able to pick it out on that.

1054
00:56:13,870 --> 00:56:14,821
Feed on that.

1055
00:56:14,871 --> 00:56:15,613
Yeah.

1056
00:56:15,663 --> 00:56:18,783
And then they use that as their leeway.

1057
00:56:18,833 --> 00:56:23,496
Like your mother didn't care
about you enough to protect you

1058
00:56:23,546 --> 00:56:25,248
from what happened to you.

1059
00:56:25,298 --> 00:56:28,960
I'll make sure that nobody
ever hurts you like that again.

1060
00:56:29,010 --> 00:56:32,672
Not realizing you're basically
being raped over and over

1061
00:56:32,722 --> 00:56:34,966
and over again every day
'cause it's not your will,

1062
00:56:35,016 --> 00:56:36,885
but they make you think that you're doing

1063
00:56:36,935 --> 00:56:38,186
what you want to do.

1064
00:56:39,312 --> 00:56:43,099
- When you're being raped,
especially over and over,

1065
00:56:43,149 --> 00:56:44,684
the first time is traumatic.

1066
00:56:44,734 --> 00:56:46,186
Your body experiences it,

1067
00:56:46,236 --> 00:56:47,604
your brain experiences it,

1068
00:56:47,654 --> 00:56:52,200
everything's on 1000 and
you feel it everywhere.

1069
00:56:54,702 --> 00:56:55,987
But as time goes on,

1070
00:56:56,037 --> 00:56:59,949
when it happens and you
expect it and you know,

1071
00:56:59,999 --> 00:57:02,077
this is what's going to happen, it's just,

1072
00:57:02,127 --> 00:57:05,872
it's easier for your mind to
shut off and go somewhere else

1073
00:57:05,922 --> 00:57:08,133
and become lifeless.

1074
00:57:14,931 --> 00:57:18,309
- We all have continued
to survive in some way.

1075
00:57:19,352 --> 00:57:20,929
Imagine all the survivors,

1076
00:57:20,979 --> 00:57:23,223
victims of abuse or trafficking,

1077
00:57:23,273 --> 00:57:25,191
that we don't even know about.

1078
00:57:26,484 --> 00:57:28,812
Will the survivors ever heal?

1079
00:57:28,862 --> 00:57:31,114
Will I ever truly heal?

1080
00:57:42,500 --> 00:57:44,327
When we were in Budapest, I left lunch

1081
00:57:44,377 --> 00:57:46,663
and I walked out and I
walked down the street,

1082
00:57:46,713 --> 00:57:48,915
had had a camera man a
little bit behind me,

1083
00:57:48,965 --> 00:57:50,708
but I'm just out for, for a walk.

1084
00:57:50,758 --> 00:57:53,636
And I come up to this car
and there was four guys.

1085
00:57:54,304 --> 00:57:56,172
(men speaking in Hungarian)

1086
00:57:56,222 --> 00:57:57,474
No habla inglés.

1087
00:57:58,308 --> 00:57:59,384
I'm American.

1088
00:57:59,434 --> 00:58:02,854
From the start, they just
started trying to recruit me.

1089
00:58:02,896 --> 00:58:04,639
You are a beautiful girl.

1090
00:58:04,689 --> 00:58:05,523
Thank you.

1091
00:58:06,649 --> 00:58:07,767
You live here?

1092
00:58:07,817 --> 00:58:09,310
We live here, yes.

1093
00:58:09,360 --> 00:58:10,687
We are Hungarian.

1094
00:58:10,737 --> 00:58:11,571
How much?

1095
00:58:13,489 --> 00:58:15,358
And they're like, "How
much do you want to make?

1096
00:58:15,408 --> 00:58:16,192
You can make millions.

1097
00:58:16,242 --> 00:58:17,735
Who do you want to make money for?

1098
00:58:17,785 --> 00:58:18,653
You wanna go?

1099
00:58:18,703 --> 00:58:19,612
You can travel the world."

1100
00:58:19,662 --> 00:58:22,157
Rachel had done undercover work before,

1101
00:58:22,207 --> 00:58:25,368
so she thought it was a good
idea to capture on video

1102
00:58:25,418 --> 00:58:27,162
how these traffickers behave.

1103
00:58:27,212 --> 00:58:29,247
There's no one style.

1104
00:58:29,297 --> 00:58:31,966
Some are aggressive and some are charming.

1105
00:58:32,342 --> 00:58:33,668
We are a bad guy.

1106
00:58:33,718 --> 00:58:34,502
You're bad guys?

1107
00:58:34,552 --> 00:58:35,336
Yeah.

1108
00:58:35,386 --> 00:58:37,046
You said you were a good guy.

1109
00:58:37,096 --> 00:58:38,798
Why are you a bad guy, Richard?

1110
00:58:38,848 --> 00:58:40,300
We,

1111
00:58:40,350 --> 00:58:43,595
We find another time, just the two

1112
00:58:43,645 --> 00:58:44,429
and I'll say.

1113
00:58:44,479 --> 00:58:45,305
You'll tell me why you're bad.

1114
00:58:45,355 --> 00:58:46,856
Yes, I tell.

1115
00:58:48,233 --> 00:58:49,601
You don't have to be bad.

1116
00:58:49,651 --> 00:58:51,603
- What?
- You don't have to be bad.

1117
00:58:51,653 --> 00:58:53,813
Can you give your phone number?

1118
00:58:53,863 --> 00:58:55,406
Can I or will I?

1119
00:58:56,157 --> 00:58:56,941
Will.

1120
00:58:56,991 --> 00:58:58,993
Will?

1121
00:59:00,578 --> 00:59:02,363
Should I?

1122
00:59:02,413 --> 00:59:03,489
Yes, you should.

1123
00:59:03,539 --> 00:59:05,116
Why? Why should I?

1124
00:59:05,166 --> 00:59:05,909
Because he's a nice guy.

1125
00:59:05,959 --> 00:59:07,952
He said he's bad guy!

1126
00:59:08,002 --> 00:59:09,329
But, nice guy.

1127
00:59:09,379 --> 00:59:10,580
- A ni,
- A good guy.

1128
00:59:10,630 --> 00:59:12,507
you're good at being bad?

1129
00:59:12,799 --> 00:59:14,500
He's have a girls.

1130
00:59:14,550 --> 00:59:15,335
You have girls?

1131
00:59:15,385 --> 00:59:16,502
No!

1132
00:59:16,552 --> 00:59:17,971
Tonight, but tomorrow.

1133
00:59:19,556 --> 00:59:20,506
(men speaking in Hungarian)

1134
00:59:20,556 --> 00:59:21,633
Pimp.

1135
00:59:21,683 --> 00:59:23,843
Pimp, he's pimp?

1136
00:59:23,893 --> 00:59:25,895
Pimp? Pimp?

1137
00:59:26,771 --> 00:59:27,847
You're good at being a pimp?

1138
00:59:27,897 --> 00:59:30,767
- Yes, I said-you
remember, I said I am bad guy.

1139
00:59:30,817 --> 00:59:32,810
So you can get me some work.

1140
00:59:32,860 --> 00:59:33,603
Yes.

1141
00:59:33,653 --> 00:59:35,021
I can give work.

1142
00:59:35,071 --> 00:59:35,855
From here?

1143
00:59:35,905 --> 00:59:39,108
- Yes. For example,
here or in Switzerland,

1144
00:59:39,158 --> 00:59:40,735
everywhere.

1145
00:59:40,785 --> 00:59:42,403
Is it legal here?

1146
00:59:42,453 --> 00:59:43,404
No.

1147
00:59:43,454 --> 00:59:44,239
Oh.

1148
00:59:44,289 --> 00:59:46,541
So, are you really a pimp?

1149
00:59:47,542 --> 00:59:48,826
- Yes, but not,
- You can find people?

1150
00:59:48,876 --> 00:59:49,869
no, no, no, no, no, no.

1151
00:59:49,919 --> 00:59:52,956
Yes, but not here in Hungary.

1152
00:59:53,006 --> 00:59:54,165
In Switzerland.

1153
00:59:54,215 --> 00:59:54,999
Switzerland?

1154
00:59:55,049 --> 00:59:56,000
Yes, and Amsterdam.

1155
00:59:56,050 --> 00:59:57,794
- The guys have
lots of money there, right?

1156
00:59:57,844 --> 00:59:59,963
No, no, no, no.

1157
01:00:00,013 --> 01:00:01,464
I have a lot of girls.

1158
01:00:01,514 --> 01:00:03,424
You understand?

1159
01:00:03,474 --> 01:00:04,309
Daughters?

1160
01:00:05,143 --> 01:00:07,145
No, not daughters.

1161
01:00:09,147 --> 01:00:12,108
No, but, your-is it red?

1162
01:00:13,651 --> 01:00:14,861
You are recording.

1163
01:00:19,240 --> 01:00:21,743
Oh, my god. That just happened.

1164
01:00:22,201 --> 01:00:24,654
Those four guys called me out

1165
01:00:24,704 --> 01:00:25,538
and approached me

1166
01:00:28,166 --> 01:00:30,410
and they said, you're beautiful.

1167
01:00:30,460 --> 01:00:33,371
He pulled out his wallet
and he offered me money

1168
01:00:33,421 --> 01:00:36,124
and asked for my number and
said he has a lot of girls.

1169
01:00:36,174 --> 01:00:37,709
You know what I mean?

1170
01:00:37,759 --> 01:00:38,593
I'm a bad guy.

1171
01:00:41,220 --> 01:00:43,548
If I was in a different state right now,

1172
01:00:43,598 --> 01:00:45,174
I would've taken his number.

1173
01:00:45,224 --> 01:00:46,134
I would've taken the money,

1174
01:00:46,184 --> 01:00:50,722
and I would have explored the opportunity.

1175
01:00:50,772 --> 01:00:51,848
Because, that's what it presents like,

1176
01:00:51,898 --> 01:00:52,899
is an opportunity.

1177
01:00:54,150 --> 01:00:57,612
And even if I make that choice
to accept that opportunity,

1178
01:00:59,072 --> 01:01:02,567
it's not too long after that, you realize,

1179
01:01:02,617 --> 01:01:05,036
you no longer have a choice.

1180
01:01:08,915 --> 01:01:11,034
Many law enforcement agencies when they,

1181
01:01:11,084 --> 01:01:15,330
when they do a bust, they'll
arrest the girl and the guy.

1182
01:01:15,380 --> 01:01:16,539
When I train law enforcement,

1183
01:01:16,589 --> 01:01:18,416
I make sure they understand
they're not a delinquent,

1184
01:01:18,466 --> 01:01:21,002
they're not a runaway,
don't treat them like that.

1185
01:01:21,052 --> 01:01:23,171
They're lost, they need
love, they need your help.

1186
01:01:23,221 --> 01:01:26,257
To be a real hero, offer them
what they need when you go

1187
01:01:26,307 --> 01:01:27,091
and you do that.

1188
01:01:27,141 --> 01:01:29,811
You ready? Standby.

1189
01:01:33,731 --> 01:01:35,975
It was the same desire that drove Kendra

1190
01:01:36,025 --> 01:01:39,228
to start her own
nonprofit, Liberation Team.

1191
01:01:39,278 --> 01:01:42,523
A rescue team that works in
cooperation with law enforcement

1192
01:01:42,573 --> 01:01:44,275
to identify traffickers,

1193
01:01:44,325 --> 01:01:47,362
locations that could be
hotspots for coercing women,

1194
01:01:47,412 --> 01:01:50,198
and prepare others the way
she has prepared herself

1195
01:01:50,248 --> 01:01:51,991
for any situation.

1196
01:01:52,041 --> 01:01:53,868
The biggest thing is respect

1197
01:01:53,918 --> 01:01:56,079
when it comes to working with the police.

1198
01:01:56,129 --> 01:01:59,540
They want to feel like
you are not a mass group

1199
01:01:59,590 --> 01:02:03,461
of vigilantes that want to go
out and step on their toes or,

1200
01:02:03,511 --> 01:02:05,888
you know, cause chaos.

1201
01:02:09,559 --> 01:02:11,144
Yeah, that's nice.

1202
01:02:14,647 --> 01:02:17,308
Ooh, it looks so awesome.

1203
01:02:17,358 --> 01:02:20,186
It's important for me to focus on rescues

1204
01:02:20,236 --> 01:02:22,480
so that I can be that help I didn't get.

1205
01:02:22,530 --> 01:02:25,316
Nobody came to get me.

1206
01:02:25,366 --> 01:02:28,027
There was a missing
persons report filed on me.

1207
01:02:28,077 --> 01:02:29,570
And since he had my cell phone,

1208
01:02:29,620 --> 01:02:32,240
they were calling my cell
phone over and over and over.

1209
01:02:32,290 --> 01:02:33,783
He brought me out to the car and said,

1210
01:02:33,833 --> 01:02:34,867
"You're going to handle the situation."

1211
01:02:34,917 --> 01:02:36,494
And I got on the phone

1212
01:02:36,544 --> 01:02:38,413
and it was the Orlando Police Department.

1213
01:02:38,463 --> 01:02:40,623
And they said, "We need
to know if you're okay."

1214
01:02:40,673 --> 01:02:42,083
And I hesitated for quite a while.

1215
01:02:42,133 --> 01:02:44,669
He put around in the chamber
and he held it against my head

1216
01:02:44,719 --> 01:02:46,796
and he said, "You make
this go away right now."

1217
01:02:46,846 --> 01:02:50,675
And there was, you could
hear my voice cracking.

1218
01:02:50,725 --> 01:02:52,385
You could hear the stress in my voice,

1219
01:02:52,435 --> 01:02:54,595
you could hear my distraughtness.

1220
01:02:54,645 --> 01:02:57,181
You could hear me cry and say "I'm okay."

1221
01:02:57,231 --> 01:02:59,642
And that's it, you just close it?

1222
01:02:59,692 --> 01:03:01,519
Nobody comes for me?

1223
01:03:01,569 --> 01:03:03,396
Nothing happens?

1224
01:03:03,446 --> 01:03:05,273
To know firsthand how it feels to be

1225
01:03:05,323 --> 01:03:07,775
in that situation and not want to be there

1226
01:03:07,825 --> 01:03:10,536
is the reason that I'm
doing what I'm doing.

1227
01:03:19,504 --> 01:03:20,913
What are your feeling

1228
01:03:20,963 --> 01:03:23,708
towards your pimps now,

1229
01:03:23,758 --> 01:03:25,126
the traffickers, do you hate them?

1230
01:03:25,176 --> 01:03:26,461
Do you hold a grudge against them?

1231
01:03:26,511 --> 01:03:28,638
Have you forgiven them?

1232
01:03:30,598 --> 01:03:32,133
That's a good question.

1233
01:03:32,183 --> 01:03:35,511
I definitely went through
a phase where I had

1234
01:03:35,561 --> 01:03:39,807
a bit of Stockholm Syndrome
and felt sorry for them,

1235
01:03:39,857 --> 01:03:44,862
and after therapy and clearing my own mind

1236
01:03:45,112 --> 01:03:47,740
and realizing things for what they were,

1237
01:03:48,616 --> 01:03:53,621
I grew heavy resentment for them.

1238
01:03:54,372 --> 01:03:56,157
If I could take my old trafficker,

1239
01:03:56,207 --> 01:03:57,617
I would put him in front of the courthouse

1240
01:03:57,667 --> 01:04:00,912
and beat him with a nightstick
the way I was beaten.

1241
01:04:00,962 --> 01:04:03,289
Or let my brothers beat them up.

1242
01:04:03,339 --> 01:04:07,418
But violence doesn't solve violence.

1243
01:04:07,468 --> 01:04:10,805
So it's just an inner feeling.

1244
01:04:16,936 --> 01:04:18,479
But I hate them all.

1245
01:04:25,736 --> 01:04:26,604
My name is Angela Williams.

1246
01:04:26,654 --> 01:04:28,606
It has come to my attention
that my ex-trafficker,

1247
01:04:28,656 --> 01:04:31,234
Jamal Rashid, is awaiting
sentencing for a crime

1248
01:04:31,284 --> 01:04:32,985
he pled guilty to you.

1249
01:04:33,035 --> 01:04:36,489
A crime in relation to his
career in the sex trade industry.

1250
01:04:36,539 --> 01:04:39,617
Once I was given an employee number,

1251
01:04:39,667 --> 01:04:41,744
at one point I was number seven,

1252
01:04:41,794 --> 01:04:44,539
I would provide sexual
services to multiple men

1253
01:04:44,589 --> 01:04:46,207
and in exchange for money.

1254
01:04:46,257 --> 01:04:49,794
And I would be instructed to
deposit the amount plus 7 cents

1255
01:04:49,844 --> 01:04:51,420
to identify me.

1256
01:04:51,470 --> 01:04:54,423
I was stripped of everything
I knew and loved and turned

1257
01:04:54,473 --> 01:04:56,676
into a professional trained sex worker.

1258
01:04:56,726 --> 01:04:59,011
Please consider my existence.

1259
01:04:59,061 --> 01:05:02,306
And the many other women he
exploited when sentencing him

1260
01:05:02,356 --> 01:05:05,017
for his crime because every soul counts.

1261
01:05:05,067 --> 01:05:08,029
Respectfully, Angela Williams.

1262
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It's easy for us to move on

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after we hear a survivor's story.

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After all, why not?

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They moved on themselves.

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Angie's smile lights up a room,

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Kendra strength inspires,
Rachel's work gives hope.

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I've learned from spending time with them

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that there is no quick fix to heal them.

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Even as they move on, they
still have their scars.

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I used to think that by helping others,

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my pain would go away.

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But instead, I realized I
needed to heal myself first,

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before I could help others.

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It took me telling my own story in detail,

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to lose the shame and be free.

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Sharing their burden helps them survive.

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We must carry their pain
with them and for them,

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connected to our own.

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We need to invite their stories,

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listen deeply, and let
them lead the conversation.

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We need to help the
organizations who help them.

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With the right support,
survivors can heal.

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Probably, yeah.

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Ready?

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♪ Take all the time you need ♪

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♪ I dare you to breathe ♪

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♪ Claim all the space to be
the one you're meant to be ♪

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♪ I can see it clearer,
lookin' in the mirror ♪

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♪ Somethin' inside those eyes ♪

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♪ Tell 'em you go deeper ♪

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♪ Now's the time to be alive ♪

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♪ Inside those diamond eyes ♪

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♪ I found a perfect chime ♪

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♪ Mm ♪

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♪ Darling, it's okay to cry ♪

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♪ Even if you don't know why ♪

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♪ Take a breath and lead your life ♪

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♪ But it's your time to shine ♪

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♪ Shine like a diamond ♪

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♪ Shine like a diamond ♪

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♪ Follow the road that takes
you to the quiet place ♪

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♪ And let the moment find you ♪

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♪ Inside those diamond eyes ♪

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♪ I find the power to shine ♪

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♪ Mm ♪

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♪ Darling, it's okay to cry ♪

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♪ Even if you don't know why ♪

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♪ Take a breath and lead your life ♪

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♪ And it's your time to shine ♪

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♪ Shine like a diamond ♪

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♪ Shine like a diamond ♪

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♪ Somethin' inside those eyes ♪

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♪ Tell 'em you go deeper ♪

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♪ Now's the time to be alive ♪

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♪ Shine like a diamond ♪

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♪ Shine like a diamond ♪